Love And Feelings

Dear World

Just thinking about love.... How I never really experienced the love you see on T.V. I just think I don't deserve it. I always feel that i feel inferior to go through it. Maybe its my low self esteem that probably is getting to me. When I am "talking to someone" I'm always afraid that they are going to say OMG you look really young. It is a blessing to have a young appearance but it just gives me low self esteem. I think because of the self esteem it causes me to not able to be with someone . They stop talking to me because they think they dating a young young dude... I try to play it off but it hurts a lot. This happened like three times already this year and Im like omg "WHYYY ME" But to the people who does notice me they are usually like seventeen yearolds and or ppl im not attracted to and i refused to be with someone im not completely satifated with. MAybe i should leave it up to the hands of God!

Well Good Night